Learning to Speak

Jesus fucking christ.  This learning to speak thing is hard.  I have a myriad of thoughts that flutter through my consciousness during the day, most of which I could write a treatise upon.  And then I finally get in front of the computer, and they all flee like the gutless cowards that they are.  I'll have to work to develop a system that allows me to better captures these thoughts and allows me to expound upon them.

I passed Bradshaw's book, Healing the Shame that Binds You to my mom.  I'll order another one along with Hamilton's latest trash fic faerie novel.   It's a very difficult book to get through, but I hope that she'll give it a shot.  When I get my new copy in, I'll pick it up again and when I see pertinent passages, I'll send them to her.  We talked about a mish-mash of stuff, but I hope I imparted some wisdom to her.  Bradshaw's theory of toxic shame applies overwhelmingly to Asian culture.  One could almost say it's characteristic of Chinese culture, at the very least (I'm not as familiar with the other cultures).  When something like that mainstreams, is it no longer a psychological problem?  It definitely becomes normal, by definition, and thus it's no longer abnormal.  However, if a psychological trait is normal in a culture, that does not mean it isn't an unhealthy trait.  Hell, obesity is normal in the US, and it's most definitely unhealthy.  So it becomes a national problem, or a continental one, even.  But it's something that one can only fix individually, or is it?  It must be true that nations go through mass psychological shifts.  Take Germany and their post WWII guilt complex, for example. Anyways, fixing the problems of a nation of a billion people is just a tad outside the scope of my control.

Hell, even fixing myself is barely within my scope of control.  However, things are going well, and I here's to hoping they continue.

Oh yah, had 2 glasses of Glenkinchie tonight.  I miss Scotch.  It had a deep smoky nutty flavor that was like velvet on the tongue.  Too bad I'll be going alcohol free for the upcoming juice feast.